Top 5 Most Heartbreaking Breakups, #2

#2 - Christina T.

Also known as X-tanic. "X", like as in x-mas, or ex-gf. And "tanic", as in either satanic because she ended up being so mean (not vindictive, just mean), or Titanic as in she is a sinking ship of doom. X-tanic, coined by one of her ex-friends that ended up being friends with me after this whole debacle.

I met X-tanic when my University crew were all hanging out in the same area as TGP's University crew. Whereas, my crew had only 5 people, TGP's had, like, a lot more. I say this because X-tanic wasn't really friends with TGP, they just knew her from high school and hung out with some of the same people. (There TGP, you're absolved from any real association with her.)

So anyways, when I met X-tanic she was in the process of messing around another boy, a good friend of TGP's, but I didn't really know about that at the time. I found out later, and for some reason didn't seem to mind. I just wanted to be with X-tanic, so I jumped at every chance I got to be near her. She ended up inviting me to her Home Group (kind of an informal Bible Study) which I attended for the better part of 8 months. I got to know a lot of her friends and was even invited to one girl's wedding.
It took me forever to woo X-tanic. She would string me along, act all like she was interested in me, and then pull back. Give me the go ahead, and then put up a stop sign. It was very confusing, because I had made my feelings for her very clear near the beginning. After that I started in on "Full Woo".
It was one of the longest woos in my wooing history.
In total, I made her 10 mix CD's. That's right, 10 CD's of songs that I had hand picked myself because of the uniting themes of "I'm SO into you and want to be with you all the time". Seriously, these things were intense. I wish I had copied more than just 3 of them for myself. I even named the CD's song titles/lyrics to express my feelings (eg. Precious Declarations, You've Already Won Me Over). Here's a sample of some of the songs:

Sky - Some kind of wonderful
Reindeer Section - You are my joy
Nat King Cole - L.O.V.E.
Police - Every little thing she does
Incubus - Are you in
Phil Collins - Can't hurry love
Alanis Morissette - Head over feet
Semisonic - F.N.T.
Michael Buble - Come fly with me
Andrew W.K. - She is beautiful

...and those are just from 3 of the 10 CD's. Imagine what all 10 would do to a girl? Turns out for X-tanic it only did something for a week or so, then the trail went cold. Usually after I gave her one we would have these amazingly long makeout sessions. Once we even made out on a dark playground in the rain. Then, she would act all like it didn't mean anything. That she wasn't sure I was the guy she wanted to be with.

Everything was so secretive too, it added a bit of excitement. It wasn't until later that I realized she may have been ashamed of me. Which is weird, because I was doing everything right for this stupid girl. I even went above and beyond one time. Her friend was coming in from out of town, she wanted to go see Vancouver Island (an all day trip). X-tanic couldn't take her because she had an evening class, I had the day off, so I took her instead. I totally could have gotten some play from this girl, but I didn't notice because I was too busy talking about X-tanic the whole time.
I am an idiot.

After about 8 months of the mind games she decided she'd give me a chance to be her boyfriend, officially. One week later, in my exhuberance of announcing this to a select few members of Home Group I had become close friends with, she totally shut me down. Decided that she didn't think she had made the right choice and that we should just stay friends. Thought I had a problem with discretion.
Excuse me? These were our friends, it's not like I was telling everyone in my social circle. And it's not like they didn't know I was wooing her for the last 8 months either. They were happy she had finally given in.
The few in Home Group who knew about the success, and then failure, were not impressed with the way ended things with me, and they totally sympathized with me. They even went so far as to stop being friends with her, and I had gained 3 more really cool people in my life. Oh, and our Home Group kind of dissolved after that.

I kind of gave up on the whole mix CD idea for wooing a girl. After all that effort going to waste it's kind of jaded me to the whole woo process. I haven't wooed in years now. But I do like to say "woo" any chance I get.

I hear about X-tanic from time to time. I think she's smoking a lot of pot now with her anti-establishment boyfriend. TGP saw her once at a concert and HAD to tell me what a terrible mess she looked like. I believe she said "Seriously Mike H, she looked like shit".

There's no greater revenge than to live well.